Jess Williamson Discography

Discography:
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Medicine Wheel/Death Songs (2011)
Native State (2014)
Heart Song (2016)

Track Listings:
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Medicine Wheel/Death Songs
Kids Like Us
Soft Heart
Jack the Writer
I Have Studied You
Medicine Wheel
Wolves (Phosphorescent)

Native State
Blood Song
Native State
Medicine Wheel
Spin the Wheel
Field
You Can Have Heaven on Earth
Seventh Song

Heart Song
Say It
White Bed
Heart Song
Snake Song
See You in a Dream
Last Word
Devil's Girl

Lyrics:
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(Album titles preceded by ##, Song titles by --)

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Medicine Wheel/Death Songs

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Kids Like Us

I'd rather lay right here than go to San Francisco
I have built a house within your mouth
And my four wheel drive
It rests upon your thighs
And in your hands I've found everything safe
But you wrap those hands clean around my neck
You bare your teeth and I know I can't go home
You paralyze me with eyes that hypnotize me
And when I can't speak I know I'm better alone
Well each time that I take off
I got this old habit of talking to god
And Darling, as I close my eyes to pray
All I'm seeing is your face
I'd rather lay right here than go to San Francisco
The Golden Gate is boring without you
And Oakland, too, holds no promise for our future
If you're right and all love is a lie
But I'll try I'll try
To move on and to move upward
But it's been raining since I left your side
And I'll try I'll try
To forget all you ever sold me
Cause kids like us, we don't compromise
And we both know the game and it's a lie
Well each time that I take off
I got this old habit of talking to god
But oddly as I'm asking to stay safe
Darling all I'm seeing is your face

--
Soft Heart

You got a lot of nerve making me your muse
And you got a lot of self to serve making that music
'Cause I never asked to be used by you
But, oh, I'm a woman and we usually do
When the desert dogs they scratched and pawed howling at our tent
You didn't wake, babe, you slept right through it
And I used to howl, scratch, and paw at your back to hold me
Never guessed lying next to you could be this lonely
And when your father saw that picture he called you a real good actor
And I'd always said you were a real good actor
Or was it a priest or a versifier or my true love or a country singer?
Babe I know babe I know
Now I know I know
You're just a real good actor
But take your acting elsewhere
Boy you knew all the lines to make me think you were playing fair
No I aint crying its just the wind
Cause I never think of you and I'll never be your friend
And I aint one to dream of what could have been
Well it's a soft heart I got but she knows when to get movin
It's a soft heart I got but she knows when to get movin
'Cause you got a lot of nerve
You got a lot of self to serve
I never asked to be used
But, oh, I'm a woman and we usually do

--
Jack the Writer

My friend what haunts you
Waking up to new day's blues
Why friend it haunts you
Well Jack he haunts me to
Jack's a writer through and through
And his prose will whip and lasso you
Jack with words a way he's got
But worse thing is he's caught your thoughts
Jack can take a sky so blue and show you terror in its hue
Jack will sing a sweet bird song just to say the birds are wrong
Just to say the birds are wrong
Sleep friend rest your eye
Jack's not there, Jack's a lie
Tyler screams and Tyler strums
He's teaching you where he comes from
There's truth in hours and truth in arms
You're six feet over Jacky's charms
You're six feet over Jacky's charms
My friend what's haunting you
You're not alone I seen it too, I seen it too
Chills my bones to get out of bed on his birthday
Fever pitched me way, way out of his way
Chills my bones to get out of bed on his birthday
My friend, my friend
And I'm no doctor
But I think we need
I'm no doctor
But I think we need
I'm no doctor
But I think we need
Each other

--
I Have Studied You

I can call you all world-ridden
And now you listen
I am not that patchwork kinda girl you courted
I'd hoped to be enough
But I grew into a shiny marionette
Lacquered and stitched
By my ideas and my visions of you
I have studied you
I have tried to become you
Blinded by the floodlights where I'd set you
A woman will wait
A woman will hate herself
A woman will wait
A woman learns
So when you came back around
All sweating and panting from finding yourself
I impressed you with my elegance
Some kind of charm to work a crowd
That doesn't need to shout
And you saw in me your answer
My sweet you were my teacher
And there are never foolish questions
There are never foolish questions
There's only foolish answers

--
Medicine Wheel

Been draped over dozens of faces
Been cut, dried, bleached, and braided
One part dead, one part haunted
Get up close and you see the ghosts
A little squint now skeletons
Now skeletons
Shamans drink the salt water
State your case, all stand, rotate
State your case, all stand, rotate
Aint it just like me to talk so ugly
Wash my mouth or just watch me now
It bubbles up, gargles down
To a stomach pit and my words, my words they drown
And go on and out
Can't count the pretty little ghosts in you
Or all the color I put you through
Grow longer longer longer long
Lash my back and spur me on
Longer longer longer long
Weigh my neck and keep me young
Young, young, young....

--
Wolves

Mama there's wolves in the house
Mama they won't let me out
Mama they're mating at night
Mama they wont make nice

They're pacing and glowing bright
Their faces all snowy and white
Bury their paws in the stone
Make for my heart a home

They tumble and fight
And they're beautiful
On the hilltops at night
They're beautiful

Blazing with light
Is the whitest and the tallest and the biggest one
She's muscled and she's fine
When she runs

They're tearing up holes in the house
They're tearing their claws in the ground
They're staring with blood in their mouths
Mama they won't let me out

They tumble and fight
And they're beautiful
On hilltops at night
They're beautiful

Blazing with light
Is the whitest and the tallest and the biggest one
She's muscled and fine
When she runs

Mama there's wolves in the house
Mama I tried to put them out
And mama I know you're too wise
To wait till those wolves make nice

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Native State

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Blood Song

Things look far away and you haven't felt awake
For days and days and days and days and days
Who can say what's really real
When there's a veil between
What you kinda see and what you kinda feel
How much do these summers cost?
Do you need a little break, a couple weeks away
Somebody there to take your vitals
Conveniently while you're on the phone with me
That's what I call fucking timing
You'll hang up when you're good and you're ready
Leaves me driving through a wild Northwest storm
That feels put on for me and my girl
We gotta get to Portland
We're gonna do real good for 'em, gonna do real good for 'em
But for now we see the forest weep instead of me
The forest weep instead of me
And I can't explain a sudden need
For the passenger seat and sleep
And then I heard about the blood
I heard about the blood
I can't be enough when we are not in love
But I'm picturing your mother
I'm picturing your mother
I'm picturing your mother
But for now we see the forest weep instead of me
The forest weep instead of me
How much do these summers cost?
Do you need a little break, a couple weeks away
You and me we got a bell to ring

--
Native State

I thought I saw something real in Barcelona, in Brooklyn
But I've learned the power now of manic delusions
I remember Leonard Cohen
And your tears and how you used to cry
And you'd thank me, you'd thank me
For not asking you why
My darling, my baby, we have a bond that will not break
It will not change, it will not fade
No matter how many times I am replaced
Stay with her, and stay away
Stay with her, and stay away
Did you wanna ask your little lady
Why she's crying and changing her sheets
Why she's lighting the sage as you're biking away
Well I can promise you she's gonna sleep all day
Feel the weight
Your native state
Feel the weight
Your native state
I remember all the chiller names you had for disrespect
Your cruelty and cavalier way with regret
Was proved by the news of how you moved inside my long-haired ladyfriend
My darling my baby
I hope you're more than just a pretty face
I wish you well, I wish you peace
I wish you real love someday
You're beautiful and you'll always meet someone
But when you're gone
You'll be tattooed under mountains on my arm

--
Medicine Wheel

Been draped over dozens of faces
Been cut, dried, bleached and braided
One part dead, one part haunted
Get up close and you see the ghosts
A little squint, now skeletons
Shamans drink the salt water
State your case,
All stand,
Rotate
Ain't it just like me to talk so ugly
Wash my mouth or just watch me now
It bubbles up, gargles down, to a stomach pit
And my words, my words they drown
And go on and out
Can't count the pretty little ghosts in you
Or all the color I put you through
Grow longer longer, longer, long
Lash my back, spur me on
Longer, longer, longer, long
Weighs my neck
Keeps me young

--
Spin the Wheel

My pride was a mountain
And yours a little bird
I'd stand long and strong beside you
You'd sing anywhere you're heard
You gotta spin the wheel every morning
And if madness or artifice come as a warning
Forget what they told ya, it gets cold in California
But the women there with the flowers in their hair
Will wrap you in white towels
So you'll never even feel it
You'll never have to try or cry
Be warm in their bath water
And they'll line your diamond eyes
Time beat pride and I saw all I'd lost
Laying with you so many nights
See my ladies moon-bathing at the riverside
Long hair, bare hearts, bare hides
My ladies moon-bathing at the riverside
Now they're singing all morning
They're singing all night
They're singing all morning: set free, reunite
Now they're singing all morning
They're singing all night
They're singing all morning: spin the wheel
And guard your pride

--
Field

Beyond forgiveness and beyond un-forgiveness
There is a field amber with healing
Whose gonna meet you there?
Who will be waist high in lilies for you?
Who?
Will you stand calm and unlocked
In the face of such graciousness?
Where beyond words like fate or faith
There is a place for us
My wise-eyed and long-haired lady
I'm with you
And we will sit with your sadness
Til the deep-dark don't get to you
Til the deep-dark don't even come close
And your hair all up in braids now

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You Can Have Heaven on Earth

The leaves must know and the water sees
A speckle light dance across her porcelain cheek
Shouldn't be,
Shouldn't be reserved for me
Just look at those eyes of hers
As she cocks her head to watch the birds
The word: nobility
Isn't she?
Isn't she true to me?
Saved a green rock from the river
Do what I can to remember a day like this
Tie a scrap of moss around our wrists
Try as we must to touch what surrounds us
All of us thinking what we can't photograph
We can sing
And we witness
We witness a splendid thing
To be happily known
Happily if only known by you
Don't turn away, don't turn away
As I bow to you
Look at my face
I bow to you
And you can have heaven on earth
You can have heaven on earth
Did it feel like for the first time being seen?
It was more like being heard without speaking
Don't turn away, don't turn away
As I bow to you
Look at my face
I bow to you

--
Seventh Song

Many of my friends now are ending their twenties
They see Saturn's return and the changes he brings
I got a good idea, I just can't find my pen
We're all waiting for life to begin
But ain't we always more or less heading West?
And I got a good man, he don't sleep Sundays
He's got the work week weighing on his brain
But I love him for his plans, and I love him for his sanity
And I loved him when he said
Will I be proud of all the money?
Like any desirable woman I use words like free
My choices are light and easy, easy
Here I am at 25 and I can't sign a lease
Mostly I survived off people being nice to me
But I hope home can be home
And I'm hoping I don't have to leave
And I hope he knows it's all on me
And I'm so, so sorry
I got honey for the hungry
And everybody gets a little piece
But do you know how holy it is
Just to quietly sit with someone?

#
Heart Song

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Say It

My body is buzzing with the weight of the road
And I can't give you anything
My eyes are closed
Cause I can't bear to see another tree fly past the window
My mixed up mind has a list of victims
Do you know when I need to be coddled like a child
And when I need to be ignored?
We could do better than this cheap motel
But somehow here I feel the most like myself
My fingertips are strangers on your face
You ask what is the matter
I can't say it
It is neither quick nor does it come as a surprise
Love is something you realize
And it goes on thick and vulnerable as ice
But it's been called a fire
So you go on and tend it
With the restraint of a choir, you feed and fan it
Don't get too comfortable
It is tough, babe, to want so much, babe
Can't stay still, son
Can't stay gone, love
Is my home in you? Is my home in me?
My fingertips are strangers on your face
You ask what is the matter
I can't say it.

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White Bed

Leave your heart open
Open to love
I am at an impasse
I don't know what's beautiful anymore
Drunk all night up yellin at the stars or
a baby on my arm
I've never felt time quite like this
Like something that I am up against
Can I be open as a cup to be filled
Or am I a sword in the hand
Our love is something I have tried to fight
But it hits me like streets gone suddenly quiet
Falling asleep to a chorus of breaths
The dog me and you
Warm in a white bed
Babe it's not hard for me to sleep
Nothing lonlier than dreams

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Heart Song

I thought I could change my heart and be the same
I thought I could change my heart and want the same
As they say my age wants
I don't look at you like you are a stranger
I don't talk to you like you are child
Because I am against you or because
I am heartles or unkind
Is freedom really nothing left to lose?
Is freedom something I have?
Something I have with you?
Oh my god nothing has changed in my heart
Will I grow into my body?
Whose blood will mean love on my finger?
On my ring finger
Is freedom really nothing left to lose?
Is freedom something I have?
Something I have with you?
You've got the phases of the moon to blame
But I am a slave to a part of my heart
Nameless and untamed
My Heart
Will I grow into my body?
Whose blood will mean love on my finger
on my ring finger and my body and my heart?
Will I grow into my body or my heart?

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Snake Song

Do you know the stakes of the snakes of comfort?
Do you know the power of your fear?
There is no one what will take care of you
There is no one but you
And you gotta go all in and alone
You gotta go all in
See I have made friends with those
too jealous to let the love come in
And I'll never talk to them again
even if I again talk to them
Cause you keep what you can
And you seen me once and that was your chance
So bind your mother's name to your two wrists
And feel your father's strength in your lover's kiss
And know that everywhere you go is home
And as long as I'm alive
You're not alone

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See You in a Dream

Tell me the secret of peace between us
Tell me when I see you in a dream
Meet me on that mountain high above the houses
And the bars and bedrooms with the pain
It's the bottom of the middle of the summer
And it turns out it is the day you were born
I cared about your stories, I was just distracted
And now I can't hear them anymore
Babe I know that I can trust
You'll do right by both of us
And you just won't get back to me
Who do you blame?
When you could run to me
the same way your rum from shame
All I really wanna do
Is baby make it up to you
And maybe sit next to you
And just quietly listen to you
Tell me the secret of peace between us
Tell me when I see you in a dream
Meet me on that mountain high above the houses
And bars and bedrooms with the pain
I know them all by name
Is our story the same to you?
Is our story the same?

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Last Word

Your girl is fake and she is vile
And when you need her the most
That's when she'll leave you with the memory
of her smiling
And she is a known liar
Why don't you come over and have a little smoke?
It's okay she and I we ain't close anymore
Lets have a little smoke
Well this image of you at my door is something
I have pictured many times before
I used to have to lay down on the floor
if you'd talked to me
I used to have to lay down on the floor
Well I shouldn't want to touch you but I do and I will
Cause I ain't used to denying it
I ain't used to your kind of attention
So I'm gonna suck it up, suck it up,
suck it all up and hold it in
I'm gonna suck it up, suck it up, suck it all up
Me well I've been ood
I've been okay
I've been waking up
With whiskey in my coffee cup
And I've been working
I've been working on finding some work
And I think Austin is my problem
This town just ain't gorwn up enough
Yeah it's been kinda tough
Well I shouldn't want to touch you
But I do and I will cause I ain't used to denying it
No I ain't used to your kind of attention
So if for one night you're mine and not hers
In this way I will have the last word.

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Devil's Girl

Yesterday I was on the phone with a
woman with my mother's name
Offering to meet me halfway between here and St. Louis
And I saw again the intimacy that comes between
Strangers with stakes in the smae crisis
It's evil how the best men I know are
in and out of hospitals
Fighting some devils
Well maybe I am just the devil's girl
You tell me I don't go deeper than the
things of this world
But you will never be old as me
And I was wrong, I was wrong
I should have held you like a mother
And kissed you on the face like a lover
But I was wrong
And if you were reallly gone
I mean like out of this world gone
I'd think I was a medium for you
And all of my songs
I'd think I was speaking for you
But for now I chalk it all up to your influence
As I live out our dream for both of us
We don't need to talk
I'm channeling you
Do you feel my vibe in Minneapolis?
It's strong
Maybe if you had just been cool enough
Maybe I'da been stronger
Maybe I am just the devil's girl.

Douglas Brick / dbrick@kom.net
Sun May 28 15:19:18 PDT 2017