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Albums: ------- Molly Venter, 2004 Love Me Like You Mean It, 2006 7.7.7 Parkside Sessions, 2007 Love Me Like You Mean It, 2008 Track Listings: -------------- Molly Venter ------------ Sleep at Night Same Language Afraid You Don't Know 30,000 Feet The Sorry Song Josh Upper Hand Walking Backwards Tornado Breaking Mine Like I'm Home Loud as He Can More Than I Take Love Me Like You Mean It ------------------------ Great Ocean Love Me Like You Mean It Shaky Ground In the Snow Tonight I'm Waiting Closer To Me Good Mother Most Devoted Love Hello Fear Write You a Letter Sit Here What Is Your Soul Worth Carrying Your Child 7.7.7 Parkside Sessions ----------------------- Tarmac Happier Now Playing for Keeps Created by My Thoughts Stars How This Ends What Brings You Joy All My Bags Are Packed I Know You Can I Love a Man the Way I Love a Mountain Love Me Like You Mean It ------------------------ Shaky Ground Love Me Like You Mean It Happier Now Write a Letter Tonight Great Ocean In the Snow Good Mother Playing for Keeps Real Anymore Hello Fear Stars Lyrics: ------- (Album titles preceded by ##, Song titles by --) ## Molly Venter -- Sleep at Night She steps outside and takes a breath like it's the last breath before she goes among the circus of performers with smiles on their faces and says 'I don't belong here I don't belong here' Well she's marking off her checklist and making conversation and forcing her smile today. She cannot find a reason for her to be unhappy, but suddenly she's lost for words to say. And everybody feels like he doesn't belong among all the happy faces sometimes And everybody feels like he's the only one who can't sleep at night. He hands her a strong drink, leans in too close for comfort before she can say goodbye. Do you want to know a secret, learn to say I love you without needing to hear a reply. Cause I have lost many friends, there is only so much I can write in a letter and if I had to do over again there is only one person I would have called and now, finish your drink dear and I will walk you home, finish your drink dear and I will walk you home. In the hours before breakfast with the boys she is losing her patience she is losing her poise. I am tired, she thinks, and I'm late. I don't remember warm weather, thanksgiving's not forever. I used to work pretty damn hard and now I don't know where I lost my ambition but I just want to wake up one morning and not worry about my dress size or my GPA or just how long it's been, just how long it's been. And everybody feels like he doesn't belong among all the happy faces sometimes, and everybody feels like he's the only one who can't sleep at night. It's not until she walks out far from any street light she notices her hands are tied, it's not until the wind stops that she knows by her own breath she needs to be alone to sigh and it's strange how thick silence feels in the air, oh and it's strange how thick silence feels in the air. And everybody feels like... everybody feels like.... And I, I'll let you walk alone he says, but I'd rather take you home to bed and she thinks well it'd be so nice to go home with somebody, yes it'd be so nice to go home with somebody, tonight. -- Same Language Take me or leave me or you will lose me tonight. Don't know what you're thinking, when you started this fight. And you're always just about to fall asleep. And I'm always 'bout to ask you what you mean. Your head runs in circles, but you don't think out loud, and I say I'll be patient and I will try not to crowd. Do you think you're going to hurt me if you tell me you're confused, are you afraid you're going to lose me if you say you need some room. I will try to sort things out. No one dreams in the same language and it's hard to figure out and I will try to translate words as long as you're the only one I ever want to wake to. You say don't get emotional, then I want to cry. You only get angry when I start to run outside. And it's too late for you to hold me once my tears have sprung, and it's too late to say you're sorry, I'm hurt I hold a grudge. I will try to sort things out, no one dreams in the same language and it's hard to figure out and I will try to translate words as long as you're the only one I ever want to wake to. You think of the future and wonder where you'll be months from now. And I tell you don't think so hard, you'll wear yourself out. If you let me take you dancing, well I promise to show you a good time, or I'll make faces for you to laugh at, I just want to see you smile. You know it's as easy as you told me, just find what makes you happy now. And I don't pretend to be humble when I say we both know that's me. And I will try to sort things out, no one dreams in the same language. And I will try to translate words, as long as you're the only one I ever want to wake to. -- Afraid You Don't Know I just hung up the phone and I'm still smiling ear to ear and it's ten minutes for my spells of laughing fits to disappear. My friends here all smile at me and say now who was that on the phone, and I say, that's just my best friend from home. And I can't remember now what made me so upset before, but you eased my mind, said Jesus Moll that's what it's all for. Don't ever feel guilty for not walking away, you're the only one who knows how you feel, you'll find your own way. I remember on the bathroom floor, we were maybe sixteen, you said, don't go, I don't want you to leave. We were drunk, we were sobbing we were out of our minds, but how fondly I remember it all from time to time. I'm afraid that you don't know cause I forget to call and I'm afraid you don't know cause I forget to write just to say I'm alive just to say I'm still alive. In the past it's been you on the phone, saying I don't know where to go, I can't go home, you said you always make it so much better with what you say, I wish I could do the same thing for you if you'd let me someday. Now it's me on the phone in the car in the rain, and I say, help me I think I'm going insane. I feel all tied down by these invisible weights. You see it's always you I come back to with my pain. And I'm afraid that you don't know cause I forget to call and I'm afraid you don't know 'cause I forget to call and I'm afraid you don't know cause I forget to write just to say I'm alive, just to say I'm still alive. I was gonna wait to write this song 'till like one of us got married, but at this rate you'll be living in my attic 'till were forty -- or it could be the other way around. But Aunt Julie, Aunt Julie, why's she so crazy, does she really have to live up in our attic? So I stand back now wondering how and why this friendship has emerged, and I don't think I that could ever really find the right words to express how lucky I feel, oh how very, very lucky I feel. And I'm afraid... you don't know. -- 30,000 Feet I'm sitting alone at the bottom of the stairs, pretending to read with my head in my hands, and there's this pain in my stomach, that I know I can contain. I'm just sitting alone at the bottom of the stairs, and my self defenses are telling me not to care, they say you're stronger than this, you're stronger than most. I'm sitting alone at the bottom of the stairs, wondering if I should have said more. If for once I could have opened my mouth and let down my guard. But no one can crack me I am like a stone, because that way it doesn't hurt so much when it's dropped, and no one can come in unless I want them to. I'm not gonna cry. I'm not gonna cry, not over you, anymore. A year ago today we sat down beside Sam, and you said that we needed to talk, we were stupid, and I think now that I just liked the urgency of your voice. And I'm sorry that when you told me you cared, I replied because you knew that I didn't, but did you know that I tried? I just didn't want to lose the heart that you might have seen in me. You said I was flying at 30,000 feet, and you were right cause I was but now I have fallen for the first person I believe could love me and still be my friend. This is not a love song, it's not even about you, but somehow you spoke to me at just the right time, and I started on your twelve step program, and now you've left me alone. I'm not gonna cry. I'm not gonna cry, not over you, anymore. We were not meant to be so I'm closing this chapter. In case we were wondering, this is our answer, and I only hope I've shown you as much as you have shown me. Don't look so funny, I don't mean to be a downer, I still need you to laugh, I still want you to talk to and I don't feel alone now but if I did I'd be standing alone. Cause you opened me up, and I bled, it was good for me. I bet you are smiling and that's all I want. It's hard to admit that I have been cracked, so you can finish my sentence, now. Oh.... I'll wake up and call you tomorrow, or you'll call me tomorrow, and you will get through. -- The Sorry Song Now I won't ask for your forgiveness, 'cause I know that it's hard for you too, but I just want to say I'm sorry, and I wish I knew myself better, better. It's like my friends, they told me Sunday morning, I'm here, I see where I'm going, but there's a mountain in my way. I guess I've known that longer than I will admit, but I thought that I could get there on my own. And do you know how to tell people you need them, and do you know the best way to say you're sorry.... Now I'll keep taking walks by myself, that's who I am and I know that it helps, and I'll try to listen to all of the hard questions, and I won't be afraid to say I can't figure it all out. And do you know, how to tell people you need them, and do you know the best way to say you're sorry.... Cause I'm sorry. -- Josh I think that my footsteps were too straight for you to follow growing up. And the times you did well things that I did wrong didn't earn you that much praise because of the times you followed your feet right off the map. And I don't know how you forgave me for always having to be right. Or why you never hit me when you grew too big for me to pick the fights. In the back seat of our car, on the way to Pennsylvania, you'd pretend to read and I'd try not to laugh. I'd boss you around and you'd scratch at my arms, so it's taken me eighteen years to realize, all this time you've been my better half. And I felt my stomach sink when I heard her tell you to study more like me. You're the one who's good at talking, but I'm trying to make them see. So now we go to the movies, and you point at all the faces and say, I can be like that, and I say you you don't have to tell me. And I know they think you're star struck, but I'm telling you right now, don't lose the one thing you are passionate about. And I don't know how you'll pull your way through this, but I can't fast forward you through there, the more you keep them laughing I think the less that they will try to compare. -- Upper Hand Well the upper hand is a funny thing 'cause it disappears like your car keys if you're careless. I was on the upside once, but I'm on the flipside now, and it's getting pretty lonely down here. And we don't have to go to Paris this year. I have suspended my disbelief for too many nights now and it's all come crashing down. And as my head hits, my heart is broken cause you haven't spoken a word. Every time I get my breath back I am more callused than I was the day before, and maybe today I will be too tough to let you back into my world. Well I won't pretend that I don't get sad when you say my name without smiling, like you used to. And I won't pretend that I'm not afraid to walk out the door and get over you like I think I have to. But don't, don't let me walk away this time 'cause I am not ready to close the book on us just yet, just yet. And oh, I keep wondering why I have so many more sad songs than happy ones, and I look for where the disjuncture lies between how I can feel for you and how I do feel today. And I promised my friends that I will not be hurt again. And I promised myself that I will not, I will not be hurt again. A little over a year we've both thrown so much bullshit each other's way. And I have no claim to say that anything will change, and what I don't know is if I need to be alone. And I... I'm so scared you'll find a girl. And if anything is evident in all that I have come to claim, it's that I am so confused. If anything is evident in all that I have come to say, it's that I am so still in love with you. We don't have to go to Paris this year.... -- Walking Backwards I am walking backwards and I'm listening to the rain. I'm waiting for the lightning 'cause I don't believe it can't strike the same place again. And I'm trying to remember how to be the bigger one. I'm searching for a rulebook to tell me if we're supposed to be done. I'm not asking you for all of the answers but do you want to stay with me. Cause we are getting shy now 'cause we are both guilty of uncertainty. I don't know what else to say in times like this. We've been down this road and I don't want to have to talk about forgiveness. When you give me that look I feel like my dog when he puts his head down, he puts his ears down 'cause he knows he's done something and he doesn't understand it but he's been yelled at like that before. I don't want to be yelled at. I don't want to scolded today, and I'm sorry I don't remember last night but don't put your wall up again. Cause It gets harder to break down with every time you build it up, and you get harder to break into, and I can't tell if I'm supposed to give up. I don't know what else to say in times like this. We've been down this road and I don't want to have to talk about forgiveness. Then you say to me, when I'm standing by your bed to say goodbye, don't just sit against the window looking all sad. You're supposed to reach out and hold my hand, at least say thanks for coming by, then lean forward and try to kiss me one more time before I leave. Well that's what I'm doing, I'm sticking my neck out like you said, so maybe we need a break, or you need some space, but I need you to talk to me. Cause I get flashes where we're laughing, and I feel like it's all right, and I get flashes where I'm crying, and you just turn your head and sigh. I don't know what else to say in times like this. We've been down this road and I don't want to have to talk about, I don't want to have to talk about forgiveness. I won't take you for granted but don't take me for stupid when you tell me nothing's wrong.... -- Tornado I had a teacher who told me, you'll write about something, 'till you run out of words. These days it feels like that's true, cause you're all that I write on, like I'm flushing my system of you. I think of how you laugh at me when I'm funny and flustered as I try to explain all the things I never say. All the things I never say. Where do we go from here when we're searching for answers. I cannot reach you, three thousand miles is too long to try to figure us out. So I'm spinning alone in the dark. I try to get it all down, but every word that I write sounds like something you just said. And I wish I could tell you to trust me, that I could see down the road any better than you can. And you say time. You say time. Where do we go from here when we're searching for answers, I cannot reach you. Cause three thousand miles is too long to try to figure us out, so I'm spinning alone in the dark. You call up to tell me how you think that we are too similar, I say what does that mean, cause I know we both think a lot and I thought I was stubborn but you're never wrong. I'm trying to change, and you're trying to change. Where do we go from here when we're searching for answers. I cannot reach you . Three thousand miles is too long to try to figure us out, so I'm spinning alone in the dark. Maybe I came to California to prove that I could and to say that I'd lived here but I, I want to see all these places but I just figured out I want to see them with you. So I write a tornado of all the things I never say. All the things I never say. -- Breaking Mine At seventeen I found the friend I base my friendships on and I guess base my relationships on too. We laugh so hard that I forgot what the word boyfriend meant till I woke up and remembered it's not you. I know that you think I am the strongest girl you know, so I can't break your heart by telling you you're breaking mine. Now you're in love, and I'm so confused because I feel like I said no, and while I can't tell you what I want, I'm afraid to let you go. I sat down to write one hundred times that I'm sorry, when I realized I'm not sorry, I'm just scared. And I can't tell you because I can't tell the difference between what is comfortable and where I need you in my life. I know that you think I am the strongest girl you know, so I can't break your heart by telling you you're breaking mine. Now you're in love, you write her poems, and I feel like I've been replaced, but I know if I were in love, I'd still write you everyday. I know that you think I am the strongest girl you know, so I can't break your heart by telling you you're breaking mine. And I should have told you before the feeling slipped away that I wanted you to kiss me in the Berkshires on your birthday. And I'm not as strong as I'd have you believe. -- Like I'm Home This is the first time that I can't reach out and reel my feelings in, and my head is working overtime to find out why. I don't know you that well and I'm scared of feeling out of control and I'm scared that one day I'll wake up to need you. But yesterday I resolved to open up the floodgates, the floodgates of my heart. When you're lying here beside me, and you tell me I feel good, well I feel like I'm home. Now I feel myself falling, and I don't try to stop it, there are no red flags in my head. It's not that I'm invincible, I know I'm not invincible, but maybe I don't care if I get hurt. Yesterday I resolved to open up the floodgates, the floodgates of my heart. When you're lying here beside me, and you tell me I feel good, well I feel like I'm home. You know it's hard for me to say how I feel, like it's hard for me to cry in front of anyone, so sometimes when I act in ways that throw you to the ground, well you know I haven't got it sorted out, but thank you for being patient. Now I won't say I need you, and I can't say I love you, so I'll just say I miss you when you're gone. Sometimes before you wake up in the morning, I'll hold your hand and realize there's so much more to know. Yesterday I resolved to open up the floodgates, the floodgates of my heart. When you're lying here beside me, and you tell me I feel good, well I feel like I'm home, like I'm home. -- Loud as He Can I go into a bar on a Sunday night, sign up after a man I see singing on a street corner, and I look into the window to catch my reflection, like it matters if my hair is up or down. He sings as loud as he can tonight, and I, I can hardly understand him. Yes he sings as loud as he can tonight, and I, I can hardly understand him. He is stomping one foot and it's muffled in the microphone, I look to see if anyone is listening. When I get up someone turns and I hear them say, well she's got a voice on her, and it's easy when everyone is listening. He sings as loud as he can tonight, and I, I can hardly understand him. Yes he sings as loud as he can tonight, oh and I, I can hardly understand him. He gives me a light without my even asking and says, you sounded beautiful tonight. I have learned to be wary of a poor man's advance, but there's something in the air that's telling it's OK to smile and say, You sang as loud as you could tonight, and I could hardly understand you. Yes you sang as loud as you could tonight, I guess I didn't understand you. Well I never got the answer I was looking for, it's just the only way to make sense of his day. And it's the voice of the voiceless calling to me tonight. Yes it's the voice of the voiceless calling me out. -- More Than I Take Anne pulls and tugs at her shirt, like she's walking in somebody else's clothes. She starts to hum a sad, sad song cause she knows that now it's time to go back home. It won't be the same now Annie, you'll make choices but you won't feel so assured. So if you want to tell me something, say it now, cause it'll be harder when we're gone. I thought I knew everything when I got out of high school. So much about people, so much about friendships, and when it's OK to break the rules. A couple years later, I get a slap in the face, cause nobody feels the same hurt, nobody talks the same way. Misunderstanding, I've felt left out, but most times I'm so happy I don't want to come down. So I try to psych myself up, think of adventures yet to come, but I get an oppressively lonesome feeling by the vision of my empty room. And I know I have made mistakes, but I hold my head up and learn to give more than I take. And I am not ashamed to cry on shoulders, ask for hugs, and just depend upon my friends. Years back you drove me up here, took a picture by my door. You handed me a bible, be we never went to church before. And it's like that with so many things, I've got it stuffed into a bag somewhere, I haven't read a page, but I won't forget I put it there. It's hard when you try to give me so much help cause I know you're worried, but I'm scared too and I am harder on myself. So if you treat me like I'm older, I will treat you like I'm older, not some headstrong little adolescent girl. Because all that I am and all that I have, you passed on me, now on my own terms I am equipped to face the world. And all my life I've been running hard and fast, like a stupid cartoon road-runner ignoring what I pass. Now I see a drop off, and I dig my heels in, and I throw my weight back and come screeching to a halt. And so wavering on the edge, looking on some great divide, I find I'm too afraid to jump, if you push me I might fly. And all your life you've been walking the straight line, now the road has split wide open and you've got so much to decide. So if the pressures in your head start getting loud you may not know it but you still make your family proud. You can't be everything. You can't please everyone, but you can be anything you put your mind to. So let go of the guilt, let go of your pride, hold on tighter to your heart, it's the beginning of the rest of your life.... And I know I have made mistakes, but I hold my head up and learn to give more than I take. And I am not ashamed to cry on shoulders, ask for hugs, and just depend upon my friends.... So I turn to my mom and I turn to my dad, and I want to say thank you, I want to say thank you, because all that I am and all that I have you passed on me now with your love, I'll do my best to face the world. ## Love Me Like You Mean It (2006) -- Great Ocean Highway 20 all the truck stops look the same Well the sign is flashing apple pie and propane I have driven seven hours today and I still got four to go I'm writing on the dashboard, taking pictures out the window They tell me the mountains still crumble and fall Even the desert gets cold when the night calls I am running short on places to hide Oh great ocean won't you stay this wide. Hey.... There's so much to uncover I don't know where to begin So I try to get quiet, I try to drop back in We build all these great big lights to keep the darkness out And we make so much noise that no one hears you shout They tell me the mountains still crumble and fall Even the desert gets cold when the night calls I am running short on places to hide Oh great ocean won't you stay this wide. Hey.... Oh and just when I think of turning back and cutting my losses Well the telephone poles are stretchin' out like crosses I don't know much about being a Christian, but I know I am being led on A thousand searching artists can't all be wrong. They tell me the mountains still crumble and fall Oh, and even the desert gets cold when the night calls I am running short on places to hide.... Oh great ocean won't you stay this wide. And oh great ocean, oh great ocean. And oh great ocean, oh great ocean. Hey.... -- Love Me Like You Mean It You hold your cards in and look away I guess that means it's my turn You hold me with fierceness and you pull away early As though you could keep yourself from getting burned Well love me like you mean it, like it's the only thing you need I'm not holding back on you so don't you hold back on me Well you can make my ears ring, baby Without making any sound You creep up to the edge of saying something Then you balk and you back down Well love me like you mean it, like it's the only thing you need I'm not holding back on you so don't you hold back on me Do you think you can save yourself If this ship goes down? If we start taking on water, we don't stick together We're both gonna drown. Down down down.... I could be your estranged father Or your one night stand I could be your unborn baby Even if you never get to hold my hand Well love me like you mean it, like it's the only thing you need Cause I'm not holding back, I'm not holding back So don't you hold back on me. I'm not holding back on you, so don't you hold back on me. -- Shaky Ground I'm thinking out loud, I'm talking in circles, without taking a pause I am over stimulated and intoxicated by the applause I've been stepping on land mines and running straight into things Now I am broken down, I am broken up, and there's no one to save me. I'm sorting through junk mail, sorting out lies I've come to believe All my fingers are shaking as I rip the nail off with my teeth And I've got good friends around me, so close I would throw a stone Oh, I've trouble relating when I'm self-medicating and alone And I guess I'm taking this slow, I'm on shaky feet on shaky ground And I guess I've got a lot more to know about leaving a battlefields alone. I'm calling on God, I'm calling my doctor and nearly everyone I know They all tell me the same thing, they say it's the only way you're gonna grow Well sometimes I believe it, but still I'm overwhelmed by everything small Oh it's not for lack of blessings, I've got no lack of anything at all I guess I'm taking this slow, I'm on shaky feet on shaky ground And I guess I've got a lot more to know about leaving a battlefields alone. And all of my life I have been having these crazy dreams All of my life I have been living in extremes I am either the smartest or the slowest, the bravest or most weak Oh when in truth I am just somewhere in between And I guess I'm taking this slow, I'm on shaky feet on shaky ground And I guess I've got a lot more to know about leaving a battlefields alone. Hallelujah, halleluhah.... Hallelujah, halleluhah.... -- In the Snow It's getting on late in the winter And I'm getting to feel like I don't want to go Cause I like the way you look me in the eye And the way the mountains look in the snow Did you look up when I sang Romeo and Juliet? Did you know that I was thinking about us And how timing is as important as the people that you meet When it comes to turning friendship into love? And we were sitting on two big red rubber balls When I stuttered out -- I like being around you -- And you got shifty-eyed and said -- it's comfortable I know that this is comfortable -- and I said -- no I really like being around you When we're walking down the street, we take the same length stride You put your arm over my shoulder and say -- You're the perfect size, but it could never be this way Cause what would people say -- then you take it back and admit that It would have been great if you had spoken sooner And I stick my lower lip out, trying to look like some puppy all alone How can you stand there and not want to take me home But I guess you have more baggage than I fully understand and you said -- Take me off that pedestal, I'm just a simple man. -- And we are siting on two big red rubber balls, and I ask Do you mind when I hang around you? And you said you must know how I feel but you're a complicated deal and I say fine, I still want to hang around you Is this crazy, will you think it strange if I write letters? Cause You have changed me and I want to know you better I hear you say, quit the dramatics, remember you're over it But I'm not yet, but I know I could be, I'm just a hopeless romantic It's getting on late in the winter And I'm getting to feel like I don't want to go Cause I like the way you look me in the eye And the way the mountains look in the snow, in the snow And the way the mountains look in the snow -- Tonight I'm Waiting Tough little girl I am quick to throw it back You like giving me shit just to see me react And you're always surprised when I take it to heart You ask, "Why's that piece of your mind not connect to the other part?" And I giggle at the things that I might fool this hotel on I could sneak out a cracker, they wouldn't know that it was gone You say, "You're like a little kid in the way that you think" And I am put off, because I don't get it's a good thing I am put off, because I don't get it's a good thing. Yeah.... Tonight I am waiting. Tonight I am waiting Tonight I am waiting for something in my head to change And I trip on my guitar case, your laughter breaks the ice We crawl into bed like children under dim fluorescent lights And I am curled up on the other side of this big wide bed And I wish I had the guts to reach out for your hand I wish I had the guts to reach out for your hand. Yeah.... Tonight I am waiting. Tonight I am waiting Tonight I am waiting for something in my head to change What I learn about myself is I feel solid as a friend When I am worried you won't like me, I am so quick on the defense What I learn about myself is I can tell you things that make me cry When I think you're going to kiss me, I won't look you in the eye Won't look you in the eye. And I tell you these are issues, and you just laugh and shrug So I sleep on my side, but I dream we made love And then in the morning I didn't want you to leave and I feel crazy But I guess I'm not as grown up as I seem. I feel crazy And I am not as grown-up as I try to be. Yeah.... Tonight I am waiting. Tonight I am waiting Tonight I am waiting for something in my head to change Oh, tonight I am waiting. Tonight I am waiting Tonight I am waiting for something in my head to change -- Closer To Me Your eyes they undo me, you talk so nice It felt like you already knew me In that warm sun light We've had two conversations Maybe three if you count the dance And I moved without reservations When you took my hand So please come closer to me Come and stand right here I can keep my hands to myself Just wanna feel you near And it cuts to my center Is takin up all this need And I felt like climbing to the top of the hillside To scream, scream, scream, and scream and scream So please come closer to me Come and stand right here I can keep my hands to myself Just wanna feel you near I wanna feel you Now I watch you with your lover She fits you just right So maybe you were my brother In another life So please come closer to me Come and stand right here I can keep my hands to myself Just wanna feel you near I wanna feel you near Wanna feel you near -- Good Mother Would you understand me, oh, if I could not speak? Would you feed me supper if I got too weak? Would you drive six hours just to watch me sit and stare? If I got to that point, oh, would I even care, would I even care? So what is the essence of this soul, when the years have taken their toll? I am afraid trapped in this broken mind And all you can do is just be kind to me. Be kind.... If I looked right through you would you still know that I'm there? If I lost my footing would you help me up the stair? Would you lead me back to bed if I wandered in the night? And if they came to take me from you would I put up a good fight? Would I put up a good fight? So what is the essence of this heart? Love is the one thing I can take with me to the dark And I am alone trapped in this broken mind And all you can do is just be kind to me. Be kind.... Would you know my grandkids, 'bout the way I used to be? Would you know my children, you all carry part of me? Would you know my husband, you're the true love of my life? Would I rest in knowing I was a good mother and good wife? Good mother and good wife? So what is the essence of this life? Can you still feel a joy beneath the cutting of the knife? And I see you scared trapped in those pretty working minds And all we can do is just be kind. Just be kind.... -- Most Devoted Love Come back to my room You leave your socks on the floor And some times you snore But you can stay, you can stay here from now on And I, I will be your Rock of Gibraltar when you call on me You have always been my front porch light And I'm not gonna pretend stuff that used to annoy me Don't anymore, cause you know that it does I am ready to be your most devoted love So come back to my room There are things on the outside, Things we can't hide from each other anymore And I... I will be on your right side when the sun comes up I will be there when the world turns cold And I'm not gonna pretend that my heart still Don't get shaky and scared, you know that it does I am ready to be your most devoted love Whoooo whoooo who in the way Whooo aoww way aoww You reel me in when I'm drifting off Alone and irate You laugh with me When you catch me trying to sound smart And I, well I know your walk from a hundred yards away I know the way your mouth gets when you're trying to think hard And I don't have to pretend my body still feels it When you're near me, you know that it does And I am ready to be your most devoted love I am ready to be your most devoted love. -- Hello Fear Hello envy, welcome in, I'm tired of fighting you my fickle friend You confound me but you're there just the same Every time I bury you, you pop up in my face again Oh.... Hello craving, pounding at my door I can scream back til my head gets sore But it makes you stronger, and it bleeds me dry Oh and it sets me up for feeling like a failure every night Oh.... And hello greed, I know you're here too I'm done with putting other names on you Like a tight-fisted or penny wise Or "There's not enough to go around" -- it's all part of the lies I tell Oh.... And hello loneliness, you're no fun. But I'm gonna let you run your course from now on. Oh this sadness, oh this pain Well I think I'll be facing you over and over and over and over again Hey.... Well hello happiness, hello joy. I've been clinging on to you like my favorite toy. But the longer I chase you, the longer you evade Oh and the more I hoard you to myself the more you slip away Oh.... And hello Fear. You always been here My guess is you will stay forever You make me crazy, you tell me lies But I know you keep me safe some of the time Hey.... Hey.... -- Write You a Letter I would write you a letter, one hundred pages long I would knit you a sweater, so you could see the time I spent on it And I would make you five dozen cookies, all your favorite kinds I would wrap them up and send them as fast as I could So you would get them in time And I don't know why we don't work. I don't know why we don't work. I don't know why we're still hurting, or why we keep trying long after it stopped working. It stopped working I would paint you a picture, oh as tall as the walls of your house I would fly out your sister, to surprise you when you're feeling down And if I could have just one more phone call, I'd sure call you today Oh, but you've got love waiting, you've got your own adventure And I think I'd just be in the way. And I don't know why we don't work. I don't know why we don't work. And I don't know why we're still hurting, or why we keep trying long after It stopped working. It stopped working I would sing you a love song, oh the kind you always wished I would write Oh this is what I got, it's for the heavens to hear me Cause my heart is breaking tonight And I don't know why we don't work. I don't know why we don't work. And I don't know why we're still hurting, or why we keep trying long after It stopped working. It stopped working Hey.... -- Sit Here Drivin the backroads of hill country My station turned to NPR It's 3:30 in the morning And I could cry, but I'm not tired Cause I don't keep normal hours anymore I stop in to use the bathroom At some pit-stop 7-11 And man that store just shines Like a kid in a toy store I am up and down the aisle From our impulsive purchase power They are building an empire And we are a culture of marketing quick fixes And I am the ultimate consumer I buy cigarettes, diet soda, Some sugared meal replacement bar I have not lost my sense of humor And the real test, the real test Is just learning how to sit here The real test is to feel the hole in my chest And just let the wind blow Cause I wanna get messed up to try To cover up the fear that's drivin me And I wanna stun myself sick And pass out real quick So that I don't have to feel so empty And you and I we would feed off our desire Cause it would get us so damn high I used to need you like a drug And nights I waited for you to come home And I felt like I was gonna explode But the truth is I did not know how to love And I sit down to write your birthday card And finally realize less is more And besides at this point everything's been said I am sad and I am fearful I licked the stamp and got real tearful Will these thoughts ever leave my head? And the real test, the real test Is just learning how to sit here The real test is to feel the hole in my chest And just let the wind blow Cause I wanna get messed up to try To cover up the fear that's driving me And I wanna stun myself sick And pass out real quick So that I don't have to feel so empty And now there's this girl singing up on stage And she looks about my age And her words come out so eloquent and true I stop dead in my tracks I'm shocked at my reaction Cause I'm inspired but thinking It undermines what I do And I flip-flop between feeling That I ought to be some next big thing And that I fear they will discover me as a fake And I say I don't care about win or lose But I'm petrified to make one bad move If I let it go would I discover that I am safe And the real test Is just learning how to sit here To feel the hole in my chest And just let the wind blow And I'm not gonna get messed up to try To cover up the fear that's driving me And I won't stun myself sick And pass out real quick So that I don't have to feel so empty I'm not going to do it just for today. -- What Is Your Soul Worth Looking at my feet, sitting in the street Picking up the language from the people that I meet I'm moving slower now Guess that's why I came And I don't know how I ever had the wherewithal To know to stay Back home the men are swarming, raised since they were boys So it feels like a game, to see who's left with all the toys I've read the words of those who gave it up to follow a call And I reread it now cause I'm lonely and lost and small They write what is your soul worth, what is your soul worth, My latest line of questioning, she met it with a hug Hands pressed on my back, keeping me from cracking up I cried what if this is selfish, What happens when the money runs out? And she said, baby you've been giving of yourself, You know it always comes around Besides what is your soul worth, what is your soul worth, What is your soul worth? Do you think you get more than one? My father was a wanderer, a lover of the waves My father was an architect before he got straight And took a job and bought a house Saved up for my brother and me And oh my father I am grateful But I cannot choose the same thing And what is my soul worth, what is my soul worth, What is my soul worth? Do you think you get more than one? What is our soul worth, what is our soul worth What is our soul worth, and do you think we get more than one? -- Carrying Your Child She is carrying your child Do you know this? She is carrying your child You understand what that means? Means each time you deface her You're burying a piece of your dreams She is carrying your hope Can you see it? She is carrying your hope And sometimes it looks like rain So don't go boarding up you windows She's blowing in all the winds of change She's carrying your grief She can take it She's carrying your grief She can take all the grief in the world If you trust her to hold it Baby she will make you a pearl Oh... hey.... She's carrying your joy, Can you feel it? She's carrying your joy, It's in everything that you touch If you open your heart to her I swear it will feel like too much She is offering completeness, Will you take it? She is offering completeness, And you don't have to give to receive And she says I am here in your longing So let it burn and it will bring you back to me Hey.... ## 7.7.7 Parkside Sessions -- Tarmac You met me on the tarmac, saying Now that I've got you here there ain't no turning back I smile and kiss your mouth, thinking That's right baby, you got me for right now You read it on my face, and say You'll never be monogamous, you can't stay in one place Well you can call it ugly names But could it be for right now we just don't want the same thing I don't have to make you see right now I don't have to make you see right now I won't show you all the why's or how's I don't have to make you see right now We talk like we're best friends And our love-making is better than it's ever been but I feel your body getting guarded, cause You know I ain't one for the telephone and I am leaving in the morning I don't have to make you see right now I don't have to make you see right now I won't show you all the why's or how's I don't have to make you see right now Right now. oooo..... Oooow.... I don't have to make you see right now I don't have to make you see right now I won't show you all the why's or how's Like how how long before I can stray Cause don't you remember, baby I ain't asking you to wait I ain't asking you to wait You have always been all ears I crash in laughing singing, spouting off all my ideas You never know when I'll be coming through But you keep opening up your arms and I keep falling into you -- Happier Now My lips are thin but they're mine My legs are not so thin but they work just fine So I am through with thinking on what I lack I have felt such relief ever since I cut myself some slack I am happier now Want to scream it in the sunshine, Even when the rain pours down I am happier now only thing that changed is I give thanks for everything around me, everything around I used to blame my mom and dad How they didn't really see me, how they Didn't see my sadness They tried hard but I still felt all this pain My childhood wasn't perfect, truth is ain't no such thing I am happier now Want to scream it in the sunshine, Even when the rain pours down I am happier now Only thing that changed is I give thanks for everyone around me, everyone around For a long time I lived in fear Oh that you might come to know me, not just how I appeared But you loved me through my darkest night so black And once I let it in I couldn't help but turn and love you back I am happier now Want to scream it in the sunshine, Even when the rain pours down I am happier now Only thing that changed is I felt your faith and I will come around, that I have come around I am, I am, I am, and I am, I am, I am, ehmm... -- Playing for Keeps I first saw you smile, when you came to hear me sing I've been watching you for a while, you finally saw me You said you'd drive me home, we wound up in your bed You asked me what I wanted, I just shook my head I don't pretend that we will be playing for keeps but I hold on You showed me how badly, how badly my body wants to love someone Oh... What am I to you, what are you to me I don't hardly know you but I'm giving you my body I told you I was afraid, then we fell asleep And somehow in the morning it still feels like you love me I don't pretend that we will be playing for keeps but I hold on You showed me how badly, how badly my body wants to love someone Oh... You kiss me on the face, you're wanting me to speak You don't let me look away so you feel me getting weak You can watch me cry, but I will hold my words My eyes will tell the story of all my past Lovers? lovers. and how I am holding on You showed me how badly, how badly my body wants to love someone Oh... -- Created by My Thoughts When I fall into a love, the kind that we have known It's hard for me to remember, I kind of liked being alone It's hard to forget, the way you could sometimes make me feel The way you loved me rotten When I had almost forgotten it was possible to heal Oh... I can't sleep so I am standing, by the window and I'm angry At myself for missing something that's so new But I see you in three days and we are past that early stage I've even started finding things I think are wrong with you I know now, I know now that you were created by my thoughts I know now that we were brought together to re-write some history we forgot Oh.... In a bout of arrogance I had myself convinced That I could not think a thought that wasn't true So as I watch myself go crazy, I try not to blame you baby It's the best that I can do I know now, I know now that you were created by my thoughts I know now that we were brought together to re-write some history we forgot Oh.... -- Stars In the night I met an angel He came and hovered awful near He put his fingers on my eyelids And I swear I disappeared I felt freedom, I felt lightness I felt scared for him to go But then he whispered, child I can't tell You nothing You don't already know Hey... this is all made up of stars Hey... we got magic in our hearts So when the storm hits, and the sea spits We're all looking for to blame When the truth is tides are shifting cause Times they are always a changing Hey... this is all made up of stars Hey... we got magic in our hearts Hey... I go traveling cross the country, Round the world for some insight When the one tree in this courtyard Just turned purple overnight Hey... this is all made up of stars Hey... we got magic in our hearts Hey... this is all made up of stars Hey... we got magic in our hearts Hey... -- How This Ends I watched you standing alone Like all you had to offer was that long dark shadow But your body can't contain all of your light I saw it spilling out your fingertips and every tear you cried... Do you understand It's all smoke and mirrors, it's all a slight of hand You can choose the way you want your dream This world will open up it's not as solid as it seems I can't tell you how this ends I can't tell where I stop and where you begin I dreamed you were alive Just outside a darkened doorway crouched a woman with your eyes... Out back behind the bar A bottle in one hand I found you crying in the dark All I could think to do was drag you down that tunnel and sing to you Amazing grace how sweet the sound That saved a wretch like me I once was lost but now am found Was blind but now I see, now I see I can't tell you how this ends I can't tell where I stop and where you begin And out bodies can't contain all of our light So it spills out from our fingertips and every tear we cry... -- What Brings You Joy Oh my most beautiful man I have been melted by your hands But there's something underneath your skin I don't understand And it may just be our age I know we did not grow up the same But what you plan to do with all that outrage And I hear you making noise Baby you can raise your voice But I want to know what brings you joy Oh... I thought you were too old to get this mad Oh... and you think I'm too naive to feel this sadness We've been living in the corner of this room Scared that the rest is dark and gloom They are just places we haven't let the light through So help me get this fire stoked Then you can shoot me your best joke I'll show you what gives me hope Oh... I thought you were too old to get this mad Oh... and you think I'm too naive to feel this sadness I can't argue with the facts We just may blow ourselves to black But all that I can do is change the way I act So when it is my time to go I hope I find a bed of stone And die like a hero coming home Oh... I thought you were too old to get this mad Oh... and you think I'm too naive to feel this sadness.... -- All My Bags Are Packed All my bags are packed I'm waiting for a train All my bags are packed I'm sitting in this greyhound station I am looking out the window, for the council the sky gives I'm going back to Virginia where my mother is Where my mother is, my mother is dying All my bags are packed I kiss her on the forehead All my bags are packed she is tiny in that hospital bed We are through with all our fighting, she smiles and she looks tired She is afraid of dying and I can't help her I can't help her, I can't help her All my bags are packed I'm back in this old house All my bags are packed in these photos we have the same mouth There was no time to get old, and have children of my own And understand why she chose to make this her home To make this home, she made me her home Daughter, Sister, Mother carved in stone She is in a list of names of those with Cancer of the bone And the man in black says what they always say Dearly beloved we are gathered here today to celebrate this life This life, this life All my bags are packed I'm waiting for a train All my bags are packed I'm sitting in this greyhound station I am looking out the window, for the council the sky gives I'm leaving Virginia where my mother lived Where my mother lived, where my mother lived her whole life.... -- I Know You We met in the desert, in a country that's not mine You with your dark eyes and that long strong jaw line But I know you, I know you, I know you from far away I can see that you know me, but you ain't gonna say it We go exploring through ruins of the old mines They ain't got no guardrails here so we crawl up and drop rocks inside It's a long time, it's a long time, before we hear them make a sound And you look at me and touch my cheek and say my name out loud And I know you, and I know you since forever I know you from afar And I know you, and I know you since forever I know you from afar You read the paper, my head rests on your thighs You start talking politics and I close your mouth with mine And the light in me is burning, it's brighter than the sun It is feeding off the light in you, they want so badly to be one And I know you, and I know you since forever I know you from afar And I know you, and I know you since forever I know you from afar I cross the border, I cross over eight state lines I see the same strip malls but I'm seeing them through your eyes And I love you, I love you, but I will not bring you with me You will not leave the desert so you visit me in dreams And I know you, and I know you since forever I know you from afar And I know you, and I know you since forever I know you from afar.... -- Can I Love a Man the Way I Love a Mountain The day is over and I'm standing outside Watching clouds drag their shadows cross the hillside And the streets are all empty now, the kids have gone home So I walk the gardens alone I'm in love with the way I am touched by the wind It is soft as a lover on my skin And I don't cling at it or grasp at it or tell it how to change I don't make up stories I don't beg it not to go away Can people hold each other close and still feel free To have that kind of love, you know I would let die part of me Can I love a man the way I love a mountain Can I love a man the way I love the sea I let the beauty of a sunset break my heart a thousand times And I keep coming back to feel it beat? I keep coming back to feel my heart beat Hey... And I read about the raven and how it mates for life And when one passes on, it isn't long, You'll hear its fading cry I have loved like that before but I did not die of grief I learned the more I open up my heart the more I'm gonna bleed (But it's a good thing my friend) So I will take these broken wings I'm gonna take these broken eyes And take these broken wings and learn to fly, fly.... I want so bad to let you in this house The way I run out in a storm and let the rain fall in my mouth I've been holding up so scared to feel the pain Oh but I still love the fire and I have Been burned by the flame Can I love a man the way I love a mountain Can I love a man the way I love the sea I let the beauty of a sunset break my heart a thousand times And I keep coming back, I keep coming back, I keep coming back.... ## Love Me Like You Mean It (2008) -- Shaky Ground I'm thinking out loud and talking in circles without a pause I am over stimulated, intoxicated by the applause I've been stepping on land mines and running straight into things Now I am broken down, I am broken up, and there's no one to save me. I guess I'm taking it slow, I'm on shaky feet on shaky ground I've got a lot more to know, about leaving a battlefields alone. As the chaos subsides, I am sorting out lies I have come to believe Oh my fingers are shaking as I rip the nail off with my teeth I've got good friends around me, so close I could throw a stone But I have trouble relating when I'm self-medicating and over exposed. I guess I'm taking it slow, I'm on shaky feet on shaky ground I've got a lot more to know, about leaving a battlefields alone. Now I'm calling on God, I'm calling my doctor and nearly everyone I know They all tell me the same thing, how it's the only way I'm gonna grow Sometimes I believe it, still I am undone by everything small Oh it's not for lack of blessings, I've got no lack of anything at all I guess I'm taking it slow, I'm on shaky feet on shaky ground I've got a lot more to know, about leaving battlefields alone. Hallelujah... Hallelujah... -- Love Me Like You Mean It You hold your cards in, and look away I guess that means it's my turn You hold me with fierceness and you pull away early Like you're trying to keep yourself from getting burned Love me like you mean it, like it's the only thing you need I'm not holding back on you so don't you hold back on me You can make my ears ring, baby, without making any sound You creep up to the edge of saying something Then you balk and you back down Love me like you mean it, like it's the only thing you need I'm not holding back on you so don't you hold back on me Do you think you can save yourself, if this ship goes down? If we start taking on water, we don't stick together We're both going to drown. Down down down... Now I don't want to hear a promise Cause everything that comes to pass will end Can you love a shoreline, with ever shifting sands? Can you love this moment as it's slipping through your hands? Love me like you mean it, like it's the only thing you need I'm not holding back, I'm not holding back on you so don't you hold back on me I'm not holding back, so don't you hold back on me -- Happier Now My lips are thin but they're mine My legs are not so thin but they work just fine So I'm through thinking about what I lack I've felt such relief ever since I cut myself some slack I AM happier now -- want to scream it in the sunshine, even when the rain Pours down I AM happier now -- only thing that changed is I give thanks for Everything around me... Everything around I used to blame my mom and dad How they didn't really see me, how they didn't see my sadness They tried hard but I still felt all this pain My childhood wasn't perfect, truth is ain't no such thing I AM happier now -- want to scream it in the sunshine, even when the rain Falls down I AM happier now -- only thing that changed is I give thanks for Everyone around me... Everyone around For a long time I lived in fear Oh that you might come to know me, not just how I appeared But you loved me through my darkest night so black And once I let it in, I couldn't help but turn and love you back I AM happier now -- want to scream it in the sunshine, even when the rain Pours down I AM happier now -- only thing that changed, I felt your faith that I Would come around And I have come around I am, I am, I am, and I am, I am... aieee... oh... -- Write a Letter I would write you a letter, one hundred pages long I would knit you a sweater, so you could see the time I spent on it I would make you five dozen cookies, all your favorite kinds I would wrap them up and send them as fast as I could So you would get them in time I don't know why we don't work. I don't know why we don't work. I don't know why we're still hurting, and why we keep trying long After it stopped working. It stopped working I would save you the last dance, I would trip myself to see you smile I would give this one last chance If either one of us thought it worthwhile I would help you sort through the furniture, but I think I'd be in the way I can't sleep 'cause I miss you, but I'm weak when I'm with you And I can't say what you want me to say I don't know why we don't work. I don't know why we don't work. I don't know why we're still hurting, why we keep trying long After it stopped working. It stopped working I would write you that love song, you would finally know how I care See I was your comfort, but we were both scared, you were my Everything and this is my prayer I don't know why we don't work. I don't know why we don't work. I don't know why we're still hurting, why we keep trying long After it stopped working. It stopped working. -- Tonight Tough little girl, I am quick to throw it back You like giving me hell just to see me react You're always surprised when I take it to heart You ask, "Why's that piece of your mind not connect to the other part?" I giggle at the things that I might fool this hotel on I could sneak out a cracker, they wouldn't know that it was gone You say, "You're like a little kid in the way that you think" And I am put off, because I don't get it's a good thing Tonight I am waiting. Tonight I am waiting Tonight I am waiting for something in my head to change I trip on my guitar case and your laughter breaks the ice We crawl into bed like children under dim fluorescent lights I am curled up on the other side of this big wide bed And I wish I had the guts to reach out for your hand Tonight I am waiting. Tonight I am waiting Tonight I am waiting for something in my head to change What I learn about myself is I feel solid as a friend When I am worried you won't like me, I am so quick on the defense What I learn about myself is I tell you things that make me cry When I think you're going to kiss me, I won't look you in the eye, won't look you in the eye. I empty my head out, and you just laugh and shrug So I sleep on my side, but I dream we made love And then in the morning I didn't want you to leave and I feel crazy But I guess I'm not as grown up as I seem. I feel crazy I guess I'm not as grown-up as I try to be Tonight I am waiting. Tonight I am waiting Tonight I am waiting for something in my head to change Tonight I am waiting. Tonight I am waiting Tonight I am waiting for something in my head to change -- Great Ocean Highway 20 all the truck stops look the same The signs are flashing apple pie and propane I have driven seven hours today and I still got four to go I'm writing on the dashboard and taking pictures out the window They say these mountains will break and they'll fall Even the desert gets cold when the night falls When I'm running out of places to hide Oh great ocean you are fearless and wide I come to the choir with no part to sing I come to the feast, but my hands are empty Do you have a firelight to keep the darkness out? Through all of this noise, do you hear me shouting? They say these mountains will break and they'll fall Even the desert gets cold when the night calls When I'm running out of places to hide Oh great ocean you are fearless and wide Just when I stop to cast off my losses The telephone poles march onward like crosses I don't know where to but I know I am being led on This heart is a hundred thousand lifetimes strong They say these mountains will break and they'll fall Even the desert gets cold when the night calls When I'm running out of places to hide Oh great ocean you are fearless and wide And oh great ocean, oh great ocean. -- In the Snow It's getting on late in the winter, now I feel like I don't want to go Cause I like the way you look me in the eye And the way the mountains look in the snow When we're walking down the street, we take the same length stride You put your arm over my shoulder and say -- You're the perfect size, but it could never be this way Cause what would people say -- then you take it back Cause with a few more months, we would have been great We were sitting on two big rubber balls When I stuttered out -- I like being around you -- You got shifty-eyed and said -- I know that this is comfortable -- and I said -- no I really like being around you I stick my lower lip out, trying to look like some puppy all alone How can you stand there and not want to take me home But I guess you have more baggage than I fully understand and you said -- Take me off that pedestal, I'm just a simple man. -- We are siting on two big rubber balls, and I ask Do you mind when I hang around you? You said you must know how I feel, but you're a complicated deal and I say fine, I still want to hang around you Is this crazy, will you think it strange if I write letters? You have changed me and I want to know you better It's getting on late in the winter, now I feel like I don't want to go Cause I like the way you look me in the eye And the way the mountains look in the snow.... -- Good Mother Would you understand me if I could not speak? Would you feed me supper if I got too weak? Would you drive six hours just to watch me sit and stare? If I got to that point would I even care, would I even care? What is the essence of this soul, when the years have taken their toll? I am afraid trapped in this broken mind And all you can do is just be kind to me. Be kind.... If I looked right through you would you still know that I'm there? If I lost my footing would you help me up the stair? Would you lead me back to bed if I wandered in the night? And if they came to take me from you would I put up a good fight?... What is the essence of this heart? Love is the only thing I take into the dark And I am alone trapped in this broken mind And all you can do is just be kind to me. Be kind.... Would you know my grandkids, about the way I used to be? Would you know my children, you all carry part of me? Would you know my husband, you're the true love of my life? Would I rest in knowing I was a good mother and good wife?... What is the essence of this life? Can you feel the joy beneath that cutting knife? I see you scared trapped in those pretty working minds And all we can do is just be kind. Be kind.... -- Playing for Keeps I first saw you smile, when you came to hear me sing I'd been watching you for a while, you finally saw me You said you'd drive me home, we wound up in your bed You asked me what I wanted, and I just shook my head I don't pretend that we are playing for keeps but I hold on You showed me, how badly, how badly my body wants to love someone Ohh... what am I to you, what are you to me I don't hardly know you but I'm giving you my body I told you I was afraid, then we fell asleep And somehow in the morning it still feels like you love me I don't pretend that we are playing for keeps but I hold on You showed me how badly, how badly my body wants to love someone Ohh... You kiss me on the face, you're wanting me to speak You don't let me look away so you feel me getting weak You can watch me cry, I will hold my words My eyes will tell the story of all my past lovers, lovers ... And how I am holding on... You showed me how badly, how badly my body wants to love someone Ohh... Ohh... -- Real Anymore In the beginning there was the one There was no difference between the self, the earth, the sun The moment it spoke its own name The moment it said "I am" the one became afraid And then the one became two The two became the many, and it was me and him and you We got suspicious of our brother Became branches on a tree, fighting amongst each other What do you see when the veil is taken off What do you see when the great whale has been caught I lost my taste for keeping score, I don't know what's real anymore I am this body but I'm not, I am a walking paradox It don't matter if it makes sense to my mind Cause the price of admission is nobody gets out alive What do you see when the veil is taken off What do you see when the great whale has been caught I lost my taste for keeping score, I don't know what's real anymore What if it's not your story, what if it's not mine What if it's just the story of everything inside and outside So while we stand around defending ourselves We are missing the heart of it and shutting out everyone else What do you see when the veil is taken off What do you see when the great whale has been caught I lost my taste for keeping score, I don't know what's real anymore I don't know what's real, I don't know what's real I don't know what's real anymore -- Hello Fear Hello envy, welcome in, I'm tired of fighting you my fickle friend You confound me but you're there just the same Every time I bury you, you pop up in my face again Hello craving, pounding on my door I can scream back until my head gets sore But it makes you stronger, and it bleeds me dry And it sets me up for feeling like a failure every night Ohh... Hello loneliness, you're no fun. But I'm gonna let you run your course from now on. Oh this sadness, oh this pain I think I'll be facing you over and over and over and over again Hey... Hello happiness, hello joy. I've been clinging on to you like my favorite toy. But the longer I chase you, the longer you evade And the more I hoard you to myself the more you slip away Hey... Hello Fear. You've always been here My guess is you will stay forever -- Stars Tonight I met an angel He sang and hovered near With his fingers on my eyelids Oh Love I disappear I am freedom, I am lightness I am scared for him to go Then he whispers "I can't tell you anything, You don't already know" Hey, hey, this is all made up of stars Hey, hey, we got magic in our hearts Across Kentucky, across my country I cross my hand over my chest And the signposts, they point to everything I'm looking east and drifting west Hey, hey, this is all made up of stars Hey, hey, we got magic in our hearts Hey, hey... When the storm hits, and the sky splits And the waves come crashing down You have your moment in the mystic You have the music in your mouth Hey, hey, this is all made up of stars Hey, hey, we got magic in our hearts Hey, hey, this is all made up of stars Hey, hey, we got magic in our hearts Hey, oh... Hey...Douglas Brick / dbrick@speakeasy.net Sun Aug 1 02:54:07 PDT 2010